As soon as I collapsed on that Friday evening, that triggered the psychotic episode, and I didn’t sleep for five days straight.
Hi, I’m Sarah Tait and I work in the Future Workplace Team and Lloyds Banking Group. And this is my little puppy, Lenny Tait.
On the lead up to that psychotic episode that I had, I was working really, really long hours, I wasn’t taking any breaks, I was constantly switched on to work. So I would check my emails from the minute I woke up and it would be the last thing I would do before I went to sleep at night as well. So it was a really unhealthy relationship with work that I had. I didn’t really have any work-life balance.
The biggest thing for me is that I wasn’t sleeping very well. I was really worried about certain deadlines on the project, I was overthinking everything, and that led to my sleeping patterns being really bad.
So on the Friday that I physically felt my brain pop, leading up to that day I was really struggling to make decisions. In the evening, I went to my husband and I just said “I think I’m really unwell, I don’t think I’m able to cope with things the way I would normally cope with things” – and that’s when I collapsed and actually physically felt my brain pop.
It was a really long road to recovery, with a lot of medication, a lot of therapy – one-to-one talking therapy and group therapy. I had to look back over why I’d got there in the first place, what had caused that happening and also how I was going to be able to have a normal life going forward.
I need to make sure that I manage my mental health in a really positive way. The way that I do that is through all of the things that we hear people say all of the time – exercising, sleep, eating healthy, making sure that I’ve got a really good work-life balance. I’m probably stronger and mentally fitter than I’ve ever been, and that’s because of everything I’ve been through.
Getting Lenny last year was one of my highlights, and it gives me so much happiness when I spend time with him. He just brings me so much joy, he really does.
We think that it’s never going to happen to us, and people may listen and think that will never happen to me. But it can, and it can absolutely happen to anybody.
My psychosis was a build-up of stress and lack of sleep, and that can happen to anybody. But the most important thing to remember is that you can fully recover from it.